Insecurities

I'm very excited about my choice for grad. school and career to follow, however, with this excitement comes many insecurities. First, I'm horrified that I won't be accepted into the program. For the most part I have all of the requirements to get in, except of course GPA. My undergrad. GPA is a 2.98 (I wasn't exactly an over achiever in college) and the minimum at CSU is a 3.00. The website does say that on occasion they admit students with lower GPAs who have displayed the ability to succeed in graduate level course work. What the heck does this mean? How am I supposed to show them I have the ability to succeed in graduate level course work when I've never taken a graduate level course?

Moving on, let's say I am admitted to the program...which I'm still not convinced I will be as of this moment...what if I'm not cut out for graduate level course work? Will I be able to juggle being a mom and doing a Master's program? Should I consider doing the part time program? I just don't know.

My last fear is writing a thesis. As of now, I feel completely unprepared to do this. I know what you're thinking, you haven't even started the program yet, of course, you're not ready to write a thesis. But, I'm afraid that even after doing all of my course work I will be unable to complete it. In college I was the type to put off writing my 15 page essay until the night before, and I know that's not going to work for a thesis.

The truth is, I believe all of this will work out. I am capable of doing this and I will find the support that I need to balance the girls and school. The trouble is I don't have a Plan B if I'm not accepted into the program. I suppose once I answer the "what if's" and become comfortable with the alternative this cloud of insecurity will go away. Until then, I will sit with it and keep my fingers crossed that I display the ability to succeed in graduate level course work!

YES, THEY ARE TWINS!!!!!

I have a few things to say about comments from the public about my girls.

1. YES, THEY ARE TWINS!!!!! You must be a freakin' genious!

2. Yes, They are both girls! Was it the pink shirt, pink pants, pink socks or pink shoes that gave it away?

3. No, it is not time for their nap! If it were, I wouldn't be out right now, I would be at home putting them down!

4. Yes, I do have my hands full! Again, you must be a freakin' genious!

5. And lastly, No, I do not care about your brother's girlfriend's cousin's friend who has twins! So please, spare me!